The Destructive Mind

Good morning,

Unless you are in a meditative state, your mind is either in a constructive mode or destructive mode. Most of use are in destructive mode.

Your mind can create the most horrific things if you set it free. You can be lying in bed, enjoying some relaxing time – and then one thought, one little grain of sand can become a mountain! A mountain that just completely weighs you down.

I want to share with you a story, the way I remember it. I heard this about 6 years ago.

I woke up in the night at 10pm, and opened the window to my room. It was a hot summers night. I looked across the street, and I noticed my girlfriends (gf) car was not in the driveway. We had had a fight and we not talking for 3 days. Where was she? I thought to myself! Why isn’t she home yet? I started to panic! Could she be with someone else? Oh no!
I went back to my bed. Now unable to sleep at all! Tossing and turning. My mind going crazy.

I got up again at 1am. I looked out the window. My gf’s car was still not there!
I remembered she said she had a thing for the guy at gym. Maybe she is out with him! Maybe she and him are -_- oh no! What if he is better than me! Maybe he makes her smile more, laugh more. Maybe he is smarter and better looking! Maybe she wants to marry him!

I got back to bed! I switched on my room light. I tried to call her. Her phone went straight to voicemail. Oh damn it! What is going on! Where is this girl!!! How could she do this to me! She knows I love her so much, she knows I’ll travel a thousand miles by foot just to be with her. Oh well, if I’m not that important to her, why should I make her important. I checked the window again. Still no car at 430am. She must be spending the night with him.

I tormented myself with thoughts until I fell asleep. I woke up at 8am. I got back to the window. There was her car! I raced down in my boxer shorts and I found her just about to leave for work.

And where were you last night! What were you doing? Who were you with?

“I was sleeping, in my bed. Alone. Why???”

Don’t lie! Your car wasn’t here all night!

“That’s becos if you listened to me last week…you would know it went in for a service yesterday and they just dropped it off.”

I held my head in shame and walked away.
My mind gave me a sleepless night. It created as Milton says, “A hell out of heaven.”

How often do we do this to ourselves? There is a fine line between misery and joy; and it all starts with a single thought. Before it expands, ask yourself 2 questions

“Do I want to experience misery and pain or do I want to experience love and joy?”
Once you decide what you want, ask yourself the next question:

“If I keep thinking what I do, will I be getting closer to what I want above or further away from it?”
You will then know if you should entertain the thought or not.

Never assume. Besides making the whole “ass of u and me” thing. It’s simple that what you assume will definitely consume you.

Love,
H

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